Monday, 19 September 2011

The slacker has rejoined MuMenTum

I think the title says it all.
I am slack.
I am rubbish at keeping up with this.
I have zero will power.
I do not know what to do to motivate myself.
I hate the self loathing I am feeling.

Right got that off my chest.

I have got to do something as I really am beginning to go down the line of self loathing. For those of you new to MuMenTum, my first post for this (quite a while ago now) explained that I do not have a great deal to lose, less than a stone, well it was it is now a stone. My main problem is the weight is creeping on, I hate it, so eat some more to make myself feel better and tell myself tomorrow will be a better day, and so it continues and each week a few more pounds are creeping on, my clothes are getting tighter and I hate it that little bit more but don't seem to be able to break the cycle.  I am now convinced I am just going to get bigger and bigger and this 1 stone will turn into 2 and then 3.

I want to do something about it. I saw the photos that New Mum Online had posted and thought maybe this was the way forward for me also. I thought hard about what I hate the most, the tight clothes, the knowing I shouldn't be eating something, or the way I was beginning to look, and I think it is the latter which strikes the cord the most. So apologies for those of you who don't want to see this or sit there and think moaning bit**, I would be grateful to be looking at that, for me it is becoming a growing issue (in more ways than one), so this is meant to motivate me, keep me on track.

Weight - 10 stone 5lb
Ideal weight - 9 stone 3lb

My expanding belly which was once upon a time and post kids nice and flat.

And these are the 3 rolls of fat I now sport instead of my nice flat stomach and want to get rid off
I really just want to try and get it going smaller because at the moment it only seems to be growing and I don't like it.

As for the tops of my legs, don't even get me started!

So for about the 10th time I am going to try and stick with this weekly blog hop, try and really do something to make myself feel better and try and have better more positive reports each week.

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