Today I have had a pretty rubbish day, I have felt very low, cried at anything and everything possible and generally felt very overwhelmed, lonely and not coping. I have not felt like this for a long, long time. How has it crept up on me, I am unsure. I think I know what has triggered it and I obviously have not dealt with it as well as I think I have.
I know I have got to take one thing at a time, and that has to be work, because if that doesn't come first then I don't get paid (family come first but that goes without saying).
I can't see the woods for the trees with work at the moment and am doing everything possible to avoid it or lose my concentration. I start something then have to go and look something up but it is enough to side track me and that's it, I am gone from work for ages. I am writing this Tues night to post Wednesday and am going to ban myself from checking the blog or my email or looking at any other blogs until I have gone through my work.
After next week I may have a few days to regenerate before the next wave of things at the end of half term which has gone from 5 days in Miami to being moved to 4 days in Madrid and now seems to be 2 days in London. This may seem better and in some respects it is but at least with a long haul flight I get time to read and relax. However it means more time with the boys which is great. I need to recharge. If I still feel like this in a week i think I need to accept that I might need to pay a visit to the doctors, as I can't go on sinking.
So onwards and upwards. Today is the 1st February and time for me to pick myself up, try to complete one thing at a time and not 100 and get on top of things and start being nicer to myself!
Wish me luck